Thursday, August 31, 2006
Ripped this from Andrea's,
because it comprises of everything I want to say to
you.
I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider. But I had to say it. I just, I can't take this anymore. I can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can't, I can't look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. And I know this will probably queer our friendship - no pun intended - but I had to say it, because I've never felt this way before, and I don't care. I like who I am because of it. And if bringing this to light means we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But God, I just, I couldn't allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot-down. And, you know, I'll accept that. But I know... I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. There isn't another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me, which - while I do appreciate it - I'd never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.
1:21 AM
Beer. says:famke ur arse.
sam. says:(blank) your arse
Beer. says:!!!!!!
Beer. says:HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT.
Beer. says:dont friend you.
sam. says:dont friend you either
sam. says:you started it first.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Don't you just miss all these childish squabbles?
1:09 AM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
A Conspiracy Theory
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A combination of the stupidity of the public and the ingenuity of Marketing.
11:13 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
I screwed up.
I'm sorry. :/
2:24 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
The Liberated Lover
63% partner focus, 52% aggressiveness, 70% adventurousness |
Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:
You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.
This places you in the Lover Style of: The Liberated Lover.
The Liberated Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and forms the kind of free-thinking, sexually-exciting, self-confident lover that society once condemned but that a liberal-mind cherishes and exults. The Liberated Lover is a treasure to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they are often already engaged in relationships or are in high-demand if "in the market."
In terms of physical love, the Liberated Lover is possibly the most thrilling and demanding of all, with the one potential drawback being that it is possible to feel 'overmatched' at times by their prowess and selfless giving. Given trust and understanding, and the right lover, the Liberated Lover can be a delight in bed.
Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Exotic Lover (most of all) or the Carnal Lover, or the Suave Lover.
The Lover Style Personality Test |
10:53 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you waitJust one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your handI'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go
2:14 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
She puts a smile on my face
that no one else can take away.
(:
And we will only need each other
We'll bleed together
These hands will not be taught to hold another's
We were the special two
4:36 PM
I miss the way you loved me
But most of all,
I miss the way I loved you.The stars are moving on
And I am staying home
And I can't help but ask myself
Where did I go wrong?
It has to be this way
There's nothing left to say
It never helps to hear
That things will be okay
You may not remember me
But I remember you
And years can hide your memories
And what you used to do
If I could make this go away
I'd wish that it was so,
Cause I should never have come here
But I wanted you to know
Time is harsh and won't forgive
The way we have to live
Sometime the only things to say
Just get in the way
I always knew that I
Could never live a lie
And maybe if I'd let this go
Things would be alright
I tried again today
To make this go away
It never helps to hear
That things will be okayThe
only reason I would try to keep myself from loving you,
is because I am not fit to do so.
12:54 AM
; how come everytime you come around, my london london bridge wanna go down says:id love to see your breasts belle
; how come everytime you come around, my london london bridge wanna go down says:really
That's Sasa, by the way.
Si bian tai de.
HAHAHAHA.
12:45 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
There are times when you pursue someone with a subconscious acknowledgement that it may just be a substratum of a passing-time event, or for the desire to be loved, to be appreciated. Ravenously partaking the manifestation of love, to simply indulge in the little fragments of the rarity of it being placed within our reach. Thus, erroneously weaving out a clothed perspicacity that perhaps it is sufficient to satiate the void in our hearts.
I am exceedingly culpable.It acts as an anatomy of eschewal so that there may be some form of progression. As the typical advice of
'moving on' relentlessly dances around your mind, basing itself on rationality and elusion as a forbearance to the potential excruciation. Our need to emotionally survive. Through artificial adaptations to a new 'I'/('Eye'), through subtly blatant acts of farce, we are gradually enmeshed into a dissimilitude of ourselves. We forget ourselves, our promises, everything of what was involved. To forget another.
But do we truly?Our hearts have all settled somewhere, one place. Be it the past, present, or future. When we open the doors to love, we are left with a possession of just a moiety of our heart with us. We own only half. The other manifests in the quintessence of a memory, a mystery.
Unravelled, my love is there.And like an imperfect jigsaw piece with edges to be altered, it has a picture it belongs to. Not picture perfect, just capricious. It doesn't have to be requited. Even better, unrequited. That's where you are enveloped into the vastness of the magnitude of love. Experiencing its erratic currents that asphyxiates, yet not killing you. When its waves relinquishes for the moment to let you up for air, you BREATHE. The manifestation of desire which compels you to circumnavigate the extremities that love has to offer, indulge in the full force of it.
When you bleed, you feel, you remember, it lingers.My hand will not be taught to hold another's.
7:01 PM
So we've put an end to it this time.
I'm no longer yours and you're no longer mine.
You said this hill looks far too steep
If I'm not even sure it's me you wanna keep.
And it's been ten days without you in my reach,
And the only time I've touched you is in my sleep.
But time has changed nothing at all -
You're still the only one that feels like home.
I've tried cutting the ropes and
I let you go but you're still the only one
That feels like home.
You won't talk me into it next time,
If I'm going away your hearts coming too.
'Cos I miss your hands I miss your face.
When I get back let's disappear without a trace.
So tell me, did you really think...
Oh tell me, did you really think
I had gone when you couldn't see me anymore?
'Cos baby time has changed nothing at all -
You're still the only one that feels like home.
And I've tried cutting the ropes,
I let you go but you're still the only one
That feels like home, yeah,
You're still the only one that feels like home.
You're still the only one I've gotta love.
2:56 AM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
We can't know why the lily has so brief a time to bloom in
the warmth of the sunlight's kiss upon its face, before it
folds its fragrance in and bids the world goodnight to
rest its beauty in a gentler place.
But we know that nothing that is loved is ever lost, and
no one who has ever touched a heart can really pass
away, because some beauty lingers on in each memory of
which they've ever been a part.
I'll never be ready to let go.
11:55 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
I know where I want to head to next year.
It's pretty much confirmed.
I'm following my heart.And I can't wait. (: (:
3:48 PM
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted, all the time.
12:29 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Belle was looking at a geography map..
Sam: (points) HEY!! SWITZERLAND IS NEXT TO AUSTRALIA!!
Belle: .... It's AUSTRIA la!!
Sam walks away in shame.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
2:22 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Wow.You can still bring those tears to my eyes.
Perhaps I've really forgotten how much I really did love you.
Last year was excruciating, yet beautiful.
Because life then, there was a lot of you.
12:09 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Sam's chanting bio in the background and I'm bored
So I ripped this of Mel's.
Favourites.colour: Green
food: Definitely Sotong!
song: Emily's Song
movie: Imagine Me & You
sport: Basketball
season: Autumn
ice cream: Chocolate
Current.mood: Gay
taste: Nothing.
clothes: Tee and shorts.
desktop: 2 gorgeous gays kissing.
toe nail colour: Natural.
surroundings: Sam's room.
thoughts: Phoebe's singing from Friends.
Firsts.best friend: My neighbour.
crush: Primary Sch Teacher (Female)
movie: Can't remember, but definitely a cartoon. :D
lie: Too many, too many.
music: ABCs?
Lasts.cigarette: ard 6ish.
drink: Chengting!
car ride: Mommy's car.
movie: Tokya Drift.
phone call: Mom.
cd played: M2M. Don't you love how gay I am? :D
Have You Ever:dated one of your best friends: Hmmm nope.
broken the law: Yes.
been arrested: Yes.
skinny-dipped: No.
been on tv: Home video counted? I WAS IN THE TV WHAT RIGHT.
kissed someone you dont know: Yes.
5 things you are wearing: Specs, Tee, Shorts, Panties, Rubberband.
4 things you done today: Studied, Watched Friends, Smoked, Farted.
3 things you can hear right now: Music, Sam's voice, Me typing the keyboards.
1 thing you do when you're bored: Stone.
And I'm still bored.
Hello geography, welcome me back.
11:35 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
Sorry if sometimes I look past you
There's no one beyond your eyes
Inside my head wheels are turning
and sometimes I'm not so wiseI really wish I could tell you.
3:23 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Even mommy knows that I like you.
10:11 PM
